By Kripa Nageshwar, Canada
I had my first online Mai-Tri Method session with Bhumika today. I didn’t know what to expect, but I was hoping at the very least that I’d find a little inner peace or calm, at least for a short while. The past week had already been difficult enough. I had already suffered at least one burnout from having poor sleep due to my back pain at night and in the mornings and not getting much respite during the day either because I was too busy getting work done (for Ambika, for the most part) or because Ambika didn’t sleep long enough during some of her naps for me to get that extra bit of sleep. It didn’t help that Bharath, though he was doing his best, was not able to support me as much as I needed because of work and his own looming burnout. However, I got more out of the session than I expected.
As we started, I asked the Masters to help me release all of my past resentments and anger towards others and situations. I asked them to fill me (that void) with the purity I had as a child. To be clear, purity and not naivety, which I had in my childhood.
When the process started, I could feel the presence of the Masters, or at the very least, the warmth of a highly familiar and powerful love all around me. I was trying to visualize where the Masters might be, but then I stopped myself as I didn’t want my imagination to take over and allow my mind to wander away from the process and experience I was embarking upon. (It was explained later that that was me surrendering to the Masters, and that’s why I could have such an intense experience).
At one point, I saw something going on with my 3rd eye from the inside. I can’t explain it, but it was like there was a kind of awakening and ‘focusing’ happening at that spot. Then I started to feel like peace was being poured into me like heavy, thick cream, but it was weightless. My mind was able to focus. I could feel the heat slowly start to become increasingly more prominent till it became like wearing a heated beanie or kipa on the top of my head.
When the Mai-Tri practitioner mentioned my having silenced myself from saying things in the past or being silenced by others, it struck a nerve. The release of old pain started. I was remembering and starting to let go of the numerous times I stayed silent just to keep the peace in my house, my marriage, my family, my own life, even though my silence was truly a self-inflicted injustice possibly also instigated by an external force. She told me to release my voice, and all of a sudden, there was peace, resonance, music, acceptance, and, most importantly, freedom.
Then I felt my heart expand; I felt the pain from all those times slowly being brought to my conscious mind, then released. The pain flowed away. As my heart continued to expand, the pain that was deeply rooted was released, and it was almost like I could see the deep roots that each painful memory being removed brought – the roots were blood-red in the sea of the green of my heart chakra and white, which was the purifying light. My heart just kept getting bigger and bigger, and the energy kept expanding – I started crying as the release was happening. The pain was being removed along with its deepest roots. The Mai-Tri practitioner said that whatever happened was supposed to happen; it was just a moment I had to go through, and it was over, just as Mohanji had said. She said that the Masters had plotted out my journey intricately and were there with me, supporting me. And I cried out of gratitude and vulnerability. Then there was acceptance and peace.
As the Mai-Tri continued, blockages seemed to remove themselves on their own – I was not as conscious of them. There was a lot of old hurts, a lot of fatigue, and just old junk that was there that was being cleared. Towards the end, the strangest feelings (physical) and sensations started occurring. I was wondering if I had wandered into a dream state or if I was doing something wrong because I could no longer feel the light or see it the way I had before. I must have been so immersed in it that I couldn’t feel the medium unless I was out of it like a fish in water. It was as though I was truly experiencing ‘I am in the light; the light is in me; I am the light.’ I almost felt ‘bored’ because the drama in my system was no longer playing out like before. I was enjoying a peace that I had been yearning for so long. If I could sleep at that moment, I think it would have been the perfect restful sleep. Also, I used to get antsy or feel pain from sitting for long periods of time. There was no pain, except in my neck and shoulders a bit, but that is because of physical issues, likely not emotional or energetic.
Throughout the whole process, the Mai-Tri practitioner guided me, reminding me to breathe as I know that I kept holding my breath since each breath was so deep and slow during the process, almost like when I sleep. That was so helpful. Furthermore, it seemed as if she was personally on this journey with me. It seemed like she got emotional as I experienced the process of removing my pain and blockages, almost as though she could see everything I was releasing or going through or seeing the energy moving and was moved by it. I don’t know what she was experiencing, but it was really beautiful hearing the emotion in her voice as I went through my Mai-Tri session. Usually, I would be a little unnerved by such a response by a practitioner, but her response was so honest and supportive (rather than dramatic or self-indulgent), and I honor and appreciate it.
I could still feel the powerful energy for several hours after the session, like a cloud. I could still feel the beautiful white light in me. This was the most profound and powerful process and healing I believe I have ever experienced in my life. I am humbled and grateful to Sai, Mohanji, to the Masters and Angels/Devas, the Universe, the Mai-Tri practitioner (for being the instrument through which I experienced this) and my husband and child (for allowing me the time to do the session). My goal and takeaway from this are to find this peace every day so that I can always make my way back more easily during more trying times. My humble gratitude to all involved in this healing.
|| JAI BRAHMARISHI MOHANJI||
Edited & Published by – Testimonials Team, 4th May 2021
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